Sunday, December 11, 2005
Hmmmm...how am i gonna start? After three days, ngayon lang ulit ako nag-visit ng blog ko. Right now, i am here in Caloocan. I spent the weekend here.. Andito ako sa isang computer shop na nakakapraning ang music.. Kanina sexbomb, ngayon hindi ko alam title ng music na 'to pero feeling ko hindi pa napapanganak si mama, na-record na 'to.. Hay naku.. I Can't find anything to say...
Kwento ko na kaya nangyari sa akin for the past three days (including today):
Friday: I woke up, nanginginig.. It was so cold kasi. But I still managed to get up and take a bath. Then ginawa ang walang kamatayang "going to school". Dinala ko na mga gamit ko na dadalahin ko sa MAnila. Math 11 was my first class for the day. Honestly, i didn't understand a word of what my instructor taughts us. It wasn't her. It was me. Ewan. I just have this habit na when i can't understand a lesson (especially math), my brain seems to shut up and stop working. Parang nakikita ko lang si ma'am na nagsasalita pero i can't catch up with anything she was saying. It was so frustrating! Tapos, nun lang pumasok sa isip ko na i didn't actually bring my book. SAyang din yung weekend, makakapag-practice sana ako dun sa math kaso nakalimutan ko nga yung book ko! Hay naku! After ng Math, I went to my next class, Eng 5. On my way, nasalubong ko classmates ko, wala daw kaming class. I went straight to McDonald's. I have a date kasi with my Cell leader's friend or can i say LG mate? Anyway, i waited there for an hour, then Mitzi came. We ate. Then, there came Iyam and Lia. We talked about the weather. Ang gloomy kasi ng weather nun. Actually, if given the chance, i'll choose not to go to manila na lang. Nakakatamad kasi yung panahon. The rain kept on pouring and pouring. Ako pa naman ang taong hindi nagpapayong. But i have to go anyway. 18th birthday kasi ng beloved cousin ko. Of course i wanna be there.
Few minutes later, dumating na si Ate Sca (siya yung ka-date namin). She talked to us about our new obligation, Cell leadership. Bigla ko na-miss si ate celat. I realized, miss ko na pala talaga siya. And to think na kami na ang bagong leaders sa cell, i'm so nervous. Different thoughts keep on playing in my mind. Puro what if's. Are we going to really make it? Do God really want me in this place? I don't know. If God is speaking to me, i can't hear Him clearly. And i can't wait to hear from Him.
When we finished talking, pina-print ko na Philo paper ko then went to my next class. We just passed the paper, tapos talked about some activities for the next week, tapos nag-announce si sir ng quiz. Essay daw 'bout what we are learning in his class so far. Sinulat ko namang may natutunan ako, and that i'm still confused with the difference of selfishness and egotism. I ended my essay there. I then passed the paper, at nagsimulang mag lakbay patungong manila.
Pagdating sa manila, wala pa si Ria (yung cousin kong may Birthday). There was a surprise mini-party for her. Obviously, she had not a single idea bout it. Sinabi sa kanya ng mom niya, there's no preparation. So pagdating niya, she was really...guess what? Surprised siyempre. Not to mention she was really happy. Feeling ko, mas masaya pa siya kesa sa ibang debutant na halos one year na nag-prepare for her big night. Tapos, kwento pa niya, her friends celebrated her birthday sa school. Bumili lang sila ng mga junkfoods, softdrinks, masaya sila! I could see in her eyes na she needed no big party. What matters is how she felt valued and appreciated by people around her. That's the important thing naman about being 18 eh. It's not about the 18 guys who'll dance with you and the 18 candles who'll make the wishes, it's the people who'll dance with you even without the roses, and the people who'll wish for you even without the candles. The best thing is, you'll discover na hindi lang sila 18, they're more than what you think. Yung malalaman mo na they are there kahit walang party, kahit hindi sila invited. I think that is what Ria was thinking kasi i sensed na she was so happy. And of course, i felt the same way for her.
Saturday: Paalis sina tita papunta sa site ng project ni tito sa Tagaytay . Ria and i decided na mag-joyride with them. Yun bang sa van lang kami habang nag-wo-work sila. Astig nga eh! Ang saya! Tapos, while waiting for them, we played badminton. Tapos nagkwentuhan lang kami ni Ria. ANg saya talaga.
Sunday: We woke up really early and attended the 7 am mass. After, uwi kami sa bahay. TApos, after lunch, we went to the mall and bought gifts for the exchange gift activities for the week. After nun, andito na 'ko sa harap ng coimputer, pilit na tinitiis ang unbearable na music sa computer shop na 'to.
